"fatpigspillsbury"

Thursday, August 30, 2007

I have the most supportive, most beautiful everyone around me! =)

Thanks for loving me no matter how many times I mess up.

i said so @ 5:14 PM

Monday, August 27, 2007

i almost forgot why i hated diakoff's class.
fdjkaldk;hjdks

i said so @ 5:12 PM

Sunday, August 19, 2007

It's been ages since I ever hung out at my cousins' for the amount of time I did yesterday. Years ago, my cousins' place was the place to be, mainly because that was where my grandparents stayed, and they took care of all the kids when the parents were working. Now, we're OLD. These days, my grandparents aren't around.

Anyway, I enjoyed shopping and eating with the cousins, watching tv all day, eating some more, and falling asleep until my brother picked me up. Too bad Michelle couldn't play with the volleyball she very much wanted to play with. It was too hot.

blah I have stats homework.

i said so @ 1:37 PM

Sunday, August 12, 2007

There are times I don't acknowledge that the ones who are truly most important are family. I know they are, but I often place other things before them, and that, I'll have to work on.

My parents are leaving for the Philippines tonight! When I was younger, I used to cry when my mom left to visit my grandma and I couldn't go because I had school. I think I'm much stronger now! =) I hope they have a safe and relaxing flight.

When we were younger, DJ used to cry whenever our grandma left for the Philippines. He would hug her goodbye and, he wouldn't let go until they pulled him away. Funny boy. Sometimes, I still feel like that. I feel like people still need to pull me away from my attachment to the familiar. It's always hard.

Earlier, I got to talk to my uncle in Michigan, and he asked me when I would go back to the Philippines to visit my grandpa. He's 94 now, almost 95. I haven't seen him in a couple years, since he and my grandma moved back there, and I don't really know much about his health condition. It took a talk with my uncle to make me realize that I haven't been the greatest granddaughter. He's gotten much weaker in recent years, and he continues to grow weaker with time. So I'll keep him in my prayers.

I'd like to help.

It's time to organize my life.

thank you thank you thank you

i said so @ 1:35 PM

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Summer session 1 is done. All I can hope for is that I pass.

I feel like everyone has planned to vacation in Hawaii this summer. I hope you all have a thoroughly enjoyable vacation! =) Lately, I've been thinking that maybe I should take a vacation myself. I practically gave up my summer, by choice though. I don't know what I need or what I should do.

I want to be productive.

Maybe someday I'll be as courageous as I'd hope to be. I want to be able to take the car out with confidence and drive through streets like I own them (but not really). I'd like to be able to approach situations without even a slight bit of doubt (that's kind of impossible). There's a lot I'd like to be able to do, but...

I keep making excuses, and I do admit I'm scared of pretty much everything.
What to do?

I want to go back to Michigan and visit my favorite aunt and uncle. I want to be able to see their best friends who are practically my aunts and uncles as well. I want to drive up to Canada, crossing the bridge or making our way through the tunnel, and make the usual trips to visit all family members and friends who live there. I'd like to be able to see the kids who undoubtedly have grown so much since I last saw them. Fun times! Who knows when that will ever happen again? It's nice to imagine though.

The second summer session is about to start. I hope I can handle it.

i said so @ 11:26 PM