I can feel the summertime ending. Summer has already ended for a lot of people I know. It's pretty amazing that IH started school last week. CRAAZYYY STUFF.

College has already begun for a lot of my friends. It's an interesting thought that girls who once roamed the same hallways just a couple months ago are now separated and scattered all over this country. IT IS AMAZING. Sometimes, I wonder whether or not I made the right decision in applying solely to colleges in my state, let alone, colleges no more than two hours away from my hometown. As many of my sisters packed and prepared to move to different states, I couldn't help but wonder how my life would have been had I decided to apply and attend a school out-of-state as well. I honestly do admire these girls who have prepared themselves to live several years away from home. The thought just constantly fills my mind. I think... no I KNOW... I took the easy way out. I think I underestimated myself and doubted the competitvity of my accomplishments as I filled out college applications. SERIOUSLY. I don't think I cared much where I would go as long as I was accepted somewhere; thus: numerous safety school applications near home!

Now that everyone has left or is about to leave the state for school, I feel like I'm being left behind. I feel like I'm missing out. I know everyone has different college experiences, but right now, I envy those students experiencing their new freedom far away from home. They have that advantage of becoming more independent. ME. I'll be going to school about an hour away from home, drivng distance. I will be coming home occasionally, and of course, I will still depend on the parents to drive me to and from school.

I've resolved to accept the fact that my life is going the way it is. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, right? At least I like to think so. So despite my long entry regarding college life miles and miles away from home, I am content with my decision to attend the school I will be attending come fall. I just wish I didn't feel like summer was extremely long! I'm waiting for school to start while many of my fellow pandas have already begun.

p.s. TOMORROW IS MY LAST DAY OF WORK.
WHAT A SUMMER!

...and two and a half more weeks of chilling at home slash being bored
I'm anxiously awaiting room assignments in the mail.
The suspense is killing me.

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