"fatpigspillsbury"

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Lately, I've been craving bananas and other random foods.

i said so @ 3:53 PM

Saturday, July 22, 2006

This summer definitely marks the beginning of a new chapter in my life. CHANGE has completely made itself prominent in my daily routine. Every day, I realize something new going on. Yes, I'm pretty much still the same person I was a couple weeks ago; however, I'm a different person in that this summer has allotted time for me to change through my experiences.

What am I talking about? crazy girl! I haven't had any life-changing experiences or anything like that. NO. Little by little, the small things that make up my daily routine actually make me realize how much my life has changed since the times most things were familiar to me. I know i say CHANGE and LIFE frequently, but that's exactly my point. My life is changing, and I think I've finally accepted it without having to miss the past.

For the first time, I admit I'm actually looking forward to whatever the future has in store for me.

random stuff:
Working has definitely been one of the changes in my life for numerous reasons.
I miss a lot of things, most especially the friends I haven't seen in weeks.
Annamarie and Aileen picked me up. GIRLS NIGHT OUT. wonderful! I miss the girls.
I say I don't have a life, but I somewhat do. My life isn't as interesting or eventful as others', but there are times I feel like my life is complete. Most of the time, however, I feel there's a lot missing.
I'm really looking forward to college. COLLEGE LIFE: something new.
I desperately want to get my license. Honestly, the day that happens, I will feel as if I've taken a step away from my dependence on the parents.
I'M READY TO BECOME MORE INDEPENDENT.

i said so @ 10:27 PM

Monday, July 10, 2006

High school is over. IH is my alma mater. I love love love that school, most especially my IH sisters. THEY are EVERYTHING to me.

I went down to Irvine for the weekend for orientation, and as I walked around campus after having taken placement exams, I realized how different the people and environment are from what I'm used to. I keep thinking about my high school and the lovely ladies who have made a difference in my life. I think about the fact that my high school was comparatively tiny to this new college. I went to a private all girls school. Transition into college may take some time for me. As I walked towards the flagpole area, I looked at the trees and the grass, and the thought of nature on campus made me miss the IH campus. For a second, I wished I were back in high school, but I continued walking. I'd had that experience already.

FROM NOW ON, THINGS ARE GOING TO BE DIFFERENT.

SPOP 1 2006 WAS AN AMAZING EXPERIENCE I WILL TAKE WITH ME FOREVER. STAFFERS WERE AWESOME. They were all so welcoming and encouraging. Without them, we wouldn't have had as much of a blast as we all did. I met a couple of people, and I got a taste of college life through dorm experience, walking around campus, and just getting to know everything and everyone. Activities were FUNN!! I SIMPLY LOVED THE PROGRAM AND MY HALL! CIELO HOT BEACHES!

i said so @ 12:57 AM

Monday, July 03, 2006

My sleeping pattern is all messed up. Never have I woken up so late every single day. I was so used to waking up at 6 and going to school at 6:45. Now, a combination of work and summer has completely changed my sleeping cycle, and I often sit here doing WHATEVER until I actually feel sleepy (usually around 3... i have no life). It's just interesting to think about the days during the school year. I'd used to wish to have a single day in which I were able to sleep at or before 10. SERIOUSLY. Now, summer, I think, has made me extremely lazy and a little careless. It makes me miss the daily school routine I will never again have.

I haven't completely put my summer to waste by my laziness. Work actually keeps me busy. Work is work. I admit that I don't have the best job or the best hours, but it prepares me for whatever it is I'll have to deal with later on: bad job, bad hours, and maybe even bad co-workers. I've made that proactive decision to start working and experience firsthand the hardship that comes with supporting myself. I can now say that I understand what people mean when they say DO WHAT YOU'LL ENJOY AND NOT WHAT WILL GET YOU THE MONEY. Money, in this world, is possibly a necessity to survival. It IS important; however, I don't think it's worth anything of any value that comes at an easy price. Sometimes that could lead to a miserable life. Work, for me, is tolerable. Sometimes, it just feels like FOREVER.

i said so @ 1:31 AM