Yesterday was my usual school day. Pretty much everything was ok except for the fact that I now know how incredibly stupid I am in math. I do not know my probability. Isn't that just sad!?!? Everyone but me understands, and believe me, the everyone I'm referring to does not exactly include the brightest people. But who am I to say that? That's a really cold thing for me to say. I shouldn't even be talking coz I'm not bright myself. I have a confession to make. I'M NOT SMART! I just get by, and I'm really hoping that all these expectations of me would go away. I'd like to think I am, but the reality is, I'm NOT.

Anyway, moving on... Yesterday was the last day my grandparents lived in the United States of America. Well, last night, my parents and I drove to LAX to say our final goodbyes to Inay and Tatay who left for the Philippines for good. It's not like I won't ever see them again or anything, and I know I can visit them, but the fact that they've been here all my life and took care of me as a child and have been there as I grew up... that's SOMETHING that one can't just set aside. It's pretty sad. I can't say that I can just visit them whenever I want to because 1.) it's expensive 2.) the Philippines is thousands of miles of ocean away... it's an irritating ride of I don't even know how many hours... like half a day or something. It's soooper far!!! Who would take a plane ride over there that often? So, that's my point. I probably won't be able to see my beloved grandpadres for years. I'm hoping I still get to see both faces, active and alive, when I go there and visit. I didn't cry yesterday, but I was sad inside. Actually, I tried to cover up the way I felt by making fun of DJ. He used to cry every time Inay left him. It was pretty funny. Last night was good. I got to see family... and right now, I'm feeling pretty good. I am extremely grateful for my grandparents!!! But, now whose gonna cook me egg perfectly, just the way I want it? I guess no one.

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